I could post more vacation and photos, because believe me I have no shortage of those, but I’m going to take a break for a moment. Partly, because I have such a vast amount of them that I do not know where to start nor really the best way to go about it. The other part is because yesterday I was able to photograph a wedding. I also may feel a little guilty about my last post as it was a bit of something. I don’t know.
With that said, change of pace because I also have a lot wedding photos to get edited.
I was actually reading another blogger and he was talking about change. First, I admire is photography and writing. I wish I could write like that. I use to write like that, but over time I have become lazy and rusty. Time never allows for much of it and motivation started to fade with lack of support. All of that combined led to the laziness and rustiness I mentioned.
I am constantly thinking about how I ended up where I am; especially, when looking at couples. 42 and single is definitely not where I thought that I would be. There is a long list of things that I didn’t think would be when I turned 42, but mainly single. Love is something that seems to be a given for everyone…but me. It has always seemed to eluded me.
I could ponder why. Most will say that it is because I haven’t met the right one. One friend told me that even though she was happily married, I was better of never being or getting married because it just isn’t worth it. Only a portion of that was her exact wording, I was stuck on the part where she could be happily married and yet seemingly against it at the same time. Everyone has such a different vision of love and marriage.
These two have been together for several years. Over 2000 plus days, from my understanding. A lot of up and downs, heartbreaks. To me that says a lot right there. Not a lot of people can say that and these two are young. I think from what I know that they have been through, not a lot will break them. I do realize that people change and that things between people change, but I am pulling for them.
I am not sure how I feel about doing weddings. The lovey dovey and what not. I think it is because when you don’t have it and you want it, watching everyone else get it-well, it just makes it a bit cringe worthy. I am hoping that it was it is and that I’m not some Scrooge when it comes to love. My family wasn’t huge on showing affection when I was younger and so certain displays of emotion elude me. That doesn’t mean that I don’t like romance and all that jazz. Actually, I’m not sure what it really means.
I don’t mind doing small weddings. I actually met these two while photographing my friend’s wedding back in 2017. However, doing weddings for people you know is different than doing it for people you don’t. I have only photographed four weddings. The first one was a daughter for a friend at the time. Then two sets of friends, and then this couple…a growing friendship and they live behind me. So, I don’t know. It changes things a bit when you do a wedding for people you know and are comfortable around.
Anyway, I don’t mind doing small weddings. At least so far. The thought of doing an overly large wedding is a bit nerve racking, but I think I could handle it. I would hope. I also think that marriage is worth it. That is with the right person. I know that I’m not alone there. It is a beautiful thing. Seeing people in love and that truly care for each other, do anything for each other. I’m glad that I was chosen to help capture that them. I’m also very sorry that got so sappy. That was an unexpected, unintentional turn of events. I might have a little Scrooge in me when it comes to lovey, dovey love as that sap I just spilled made me a bit nauseous. Either way, I still like to hope that the day will come when I, too, get to walk down the aise with some cowboy who’s willing to spend my days with me. That little sappy tree hugger in me likes to think that there is someone for us all.
With that said, I must call it day. There is work to do and pictures to edit. I hope that you like the pictures I’ve posted so far. The bride is happy. Now off to finish getting through the rest.
Live, laugh, love, and let it ride.