Tag Archive | Mountains

The Sky is Blue

DSC_5535Honestly, right now that is the only thing that I’m sure of.

Weeks ago, I was planning my vacation.  Or at least planning on how I’d take a vacation and move at the same time.  Weeks ago, I had a plan.  I should have known that would bite me because me planning things…it always comes with landmines waiting to explode.

Next week, after weeks of waiting, I will find out if I’m saved from the first round of lay-offs.  I celebrated 11 years this past Monday and my consolation prize may be a severance package.  I’ve tried to remain positive up to this point.  We don’t know what’s going to happen.  They’ve been saying this for years.  Telling myself all the things we tell ourselves to see the silver lining, but the truth is…they’ve taken our work and there is not enough to sustain us and the end run is to eliminate us all together.  That has always been the plan.

I can’t even complain about it being because my work was outsourced, because it’s not really outsourcing if the company getting your work is a subsidiary company of the one you work for.  Yeah…how great is that? I mean, it’s a great opportunity.  Like…good for them.  Not so much for those of us that have been waiting for weeks to find out if we are going to actually lose our jobs.

I never really thought this day would come, but here I am.  Coming weeks after I chose to turn down my grad seat because I couldn’t be sure that financially I could make the move work.  Now, I scramble to find another program willing to take a chance on me.  Somewhere I know that it was the right decision, but with all that is going on….it is just one more thing.

2020 hasn’t really sucked for me so far, but February alone can buck off.  I’ve battled injury after injury.  Yeah…bring on March, because I refuse to let February define the rest of the year.  Of course that may change depending on what happens next week, but I’m also choosing to believe that everything really does happen for a reason.  That reason may be that people are just greedy jerks, but there has to be a reason.  A purpose.  If it doesn’t challenge you, it doesn’t change you.

It may not sound like it, but I’m not really hateful or angry…I’m just feeling stressed, anxious…but this could be a good thing and I am choosing to believe that.  With that said, it also doesn’t change the fact that right now all I’m sure of is that the sky is blue and that mountains are beautiful.

Thank you for sticking around.  I’m not sure what is next, but for now I plan on continuing my blog as soon as I sort myself out.

Live, laugh, love, and let it ride.
~SMH, Montana Rose Photography~

Sinner vs. Saints

DSC_5503Somewhere out near Moose Junction in the Grand Tetons sits a little old church.  Nestled in the mountains, the view is beautiful.  This is really no surprise.  That is unless you sit outside….then it depends on where you sit.

To the right and to the left there are benches.  One pair has a beautiful view of the mountains, the other set…a view of the building.  I couldn’t help but wonder the implications of this, but only one thing stood out….sinners vs. saints.

Considering that it is self-seating, I cannot help but wonder why anyone would choose to sit on the side without the mountains.  I doubt sermons  are held outside unless the congregation is small.  So, why?  Does one deem themselves not worthy of viewing the mountains?  Does one not want to be distracted by the mountains?  Does one just purely not like the mountains?  That last one raise a whole other question….like, why exactly are you in the mountains? Anyway, why sit on the other side of the building.

I did not grow up religious.  I grew up in a family that believed in God, but that is as far as it went.  My grandparents went to church religiously, but we didn’t.  There is a difference between growing up in a family that is religious and growing up in one that merely believes there is a God.  You have to come to terms with figuring out your own spiritual conviction.  It is something that is enlightening and sometimes confusing depend on where you are in life and what you need.

I won’t discuss religious views.  To each their own.  What I will say is this….if you have the choice, always choose the beautiful side.  Despite what you are going through.  Despite what you think that you have done that deems you unworthy.  Always sit on the side with the view.  The view, the beauty it is what makes us seek redemption and life over despair.  You can’t really get right with yourself, soul, or whatever spiritual being you believe in if you are staring at a wall that doesn’t allow you to see.  That is my opinion of course.  Again, to each their own.
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Live, laugh, love, and let it ride.
~SMH, Montana Rose Photography~

Mountain State of Mind

DSC_6065Especially now that I have to attend jury duty next week.  Ugh.  I know that I should be one of those, “it’s my civil duty” and blah-blah-blah, but seriously…no.  It ranks right up there with watching golf (For those that share my dismay at the thought of that).  Anyway, I can only hope that it is better than the last two times I was called.

The first time I was called for jury duty, I was an alternate.  An alternate jury member, meaning that I get to sit through the trial and not get to voice any of your opinions while the other jury members discuss things and ignore little details like “how you didn’t see that that the guy was carrying a 2×4?”  Yeah.  Fun-fun.  I’d like to at least get to input my opinion on such matters if I have to sit through the tiresome back and forth of it all.

The second time, I was in Ohio and they do things a lot differently.  I was called to sit in a pool of jurors.  This means, that you sit in this room with a bunch of strangers and maybe you get called for  jury duty and maybe you don’t.  Or, if you are really lucky, you get pulled for a case.  You then go to the court room, the judge sits you down, tells you what privilege and duty it is to serve on a jury, and then informs you that the case has been dismissed or settled and that there will be no jury needed.  Sounds simple enough.  All done and get to go home?  Oh, no.  Of course not.

In Columbus OH, if  you don’t get selected for a case, or in my case the trial is no longer happening, you get to sit in the room until the end of the week or until you get pulled for a trial that actually happens.  Yay!  I sat there all day for five days.  I read a book, started a book, and watched a couple of movies.  Not all that horrible.  I did get paid for being there and for work so that was good.  At the time my job didn’t require you sign over your jury check like a lot of places so I got bonus money.  Still…yeah.

Anyway, I will just take it for what it is and dream that I am somewhere else.  Like the mountains.   I hate the busy-ness of the Tetons but I am missing Wyoming, or really anywhere that is Westbound and not Indiana.  The fresh air.  The quietness.  The peace. The nature of it all.  I’ve always had a thing for mountains and with a water view, just makes it all that much better.

I didn’t quite get the water as still as I would have liked and truth be told, I cannot remember if it was sunset or sunrise.  I am thinking that these were taken on my way back from Yellowstone so that would be have sunset.  Maybe. I guess ultimately it really doesn’t matter.  What does matter is that I loved the sun and the mountain reflection in the water.  I hope that you do too.

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Have a beautiful day and tomorrow.
Live, laugh, love, and let it ride.

~Montana Rose Photography~