Tag Archive | gorillas

The Words…

DSC_6282I wonder what it would be like for my words to mean something.  To truly be heard.  To be felt.  To merely come out the way that I mean for them to.  Somewhere along the way I have lost my voice.  That is assuming that I had one to begin with.

I’ve sat down to write a post many of times.  Many of times I’ve failed to follow through, or I’ve posted it and deleted it before it was up long enough to matter.   I cannot honestly say why.  There could be any number of reasons, but right now everything is starting to blur together.  I’m sure that I’m not alone there,  lockdowns are not kind to idle minds.

I have had a little bit too much time to reflect on my life.  I have noticed that I’m not on the extreme end of thinkers on this COVID-19 thing, but I’m also not one of those that thinks it’s just the flu.  I fall somewhere in the middle.  Not terrified but still taking it seriously.   It’s made me think about things in my life….things like I think that maybe my life has always been just magazine covers and that I’ve never actually opened the issue to read it.

I know that probably doesn’t make sense, but I’m not really sure how else to explain it.  I feel like when it comes to figuring out me, and things that I want, that I just kind of scratch the surface but never really make any progress.  I know, “Would you like a little cheese with that whine?”  It’s not my intent and I know that I’m not alone.

All of the thoughts and all of the real world affairs, my head has been a bit crowded.  It’s been a trial to get things done.  A lot of my people have been talking about their cleaning frenzies,  I’ve not had that problem…unfortunately.  However, in my defense….the only thing that has really changed for me is that I can’t go anywhere if I want to because there is no where to go.  Traveling is frowned upon and This town, IN doesn’t have anything to offer in the way of entertainment when everything is closed.  I’m still working full time, for now, and I’m still working the farm part time.  My weekends are just a little bit more open.  Still enough to drive me up the wall.  Having to be conscientious about when I go to the store, what I touch, who is in my bubble (Not that I’ve ever loved anyone of non-choice in my bubble, but just the same).

I’ve lost my train of thought….that is what I get for multitasking and not having a firm grasp on what I wanted to write.

This is picture is one of Mshindi’s troop.  I cannot remember which one.  I think Asha? Maybe.  I could look it up, but I’m currently unaware of the whereabouts of my phone.  I posted a colored version of this picture on Facebook, but I loving the black and white.   I have so many pictures to post; hopefully, I can get myself back in it.  For now, I hope you like this one, or the colored one.

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Have a great night!
~SMH, Montana Rose Photography~

Because…

DSC_3716bwTo sit an wonder while looking so at peace.

This is a duplicate picture. I figured I would repost it, because it kind of got lost with words and the fact that I’ve not posted regularly.  I love this picture and hope that you enjoy it too.

Have a beautiful day and tomorrow.
~SMH, Montana Rose Photography~

The Look

DSC_6721API love gorillas, but there was something about this guy that was captivating.  I could have spent all day watching him.

They call him Mshindi.  He was born and raised in the zoo life.  I wish that wasn’t his life, but it is what it is I suppose.   I am hoping that the world doesn’t come crashing down so I can visit him again.  I’d also like to meet Ndume in person, even if it is from a distance.

Ndume lived with Koko The Gorilla for over 30 years.  When she passed away, fits were thrown and decisions were made that Ndume should go to the Cincinnati zoo.  He is the reason I am now a fan of Mshindi.

I didn’t get to see Ndume, because he’s not allowed out on the weekends from what I’m told.  He still loves people too much and so crowded days are hard for him and since they are trying to acclimate him to zoo life, he’s only allowed out when it is not as crowded (week days).  I will not get on my soapbox about it, but it made me sad.  It all makes me sad, but I digress.

It is weird how that works.  As I watched Mshindi, I became sad.  He was bored and it seemed to me as if he knew there was more to life than be on exhibit.  I know most won’t agree with that, but he knows he traveled from one zoo to another.  They’re also not stupid animals.  If there is an uprising, it will be gorillas and monkeys and I’m pretty sure that Mshindi might be leading the charge.  A real life “Rise of the Planet of the Apes,”  if you will.  Just the looks he would give those hollering his name because they were trying to be funny, there were a couple of times I got the impression they were lucky there was a mote between them and him.

I posted another picture of him yesterday that I liked, but it was a solemn post.  The stress of the current situation was wearing on me and I got in my head.  I’ll repost that picture at some point.  In the meantime, I hope that you like this one.

Live, laugh, love, and let it ride.
~SMH, Montana Rose Photography~