I know that I have been gone a while. It was not intentional, it just was. I reached a level of lull that I just couldn’t seem to shake. I actually went to write this post a couple of weeks ago when I actually took these pictures, but I wanted to write. I miss writing…I know that I have said that before, but I do.
Anyway, I wanted to write. I didn’t really know what to write, there are a million thoughts in my head and therefore I wrote nothing. I posted nothing. I am not going to lie….2018 has not been my best year. It has had a some good moments, but it has been a far worse year than most. I have been trying so hard to find the light, but it has been hard. I turn 42 in two weeks and each passing year weighs on me a little bit more.
So many people I know spend a lot of time talking about their anxiety, their depression, and all that. I don’t. I know that I have mentioned it a time or two, but the actual depth-I Have not. No one wants to hear that. Maybe there are, but most don’t and that is okay.
It is time for a change. Something that I have also said time and time before. Now that change is crucial. No one should feel like they are just being passed by or even just fading away. No one should feel unfulfilled. Empty. Passion and fire is a must, I think. For a fulfilled life. Fire and passion.
When I took these photos, the zone and I were under two trees. They are fairly close to each and their branches were just full of leaves. Yellow and orange and reddish. The colors of fall. The colors of fire and passion.
The only sun that showed through these trees was when the wind blew and the branches swayed a bit. The leaves would just fall and so many of them at the time. It was just beautiful and serene. For a moment, I forgot about everything else. My mind was not running a hundred miles per minute and it was just one with nature.
The leaves are gone now. Winter has officially set in. I don’t know what will happen over the next few weeks. What the new year will bring. I know what I would like to happen, but really it can only be taken one day at a time. One falling leaf at a time.
As for the pictures. I hope that you enjoy them. It is the first time in a long time that I have touched my camera and these pictures required little to no editing.
Have a beautiful day and tomorrow.
Montana Rose Photography