I have been a way a while. I know this. It has been a struggle to get back to things. Do not worry, this won’t be some woe is me post. At least that is not its intent. It is also not to make my issues sound more than anyone else. No. We all have our problems. Are hardships and our heartaches. We all have some kind of ailment and not for a second would I try to say otherwise nor would I for a second pretend mine our greater. Mine are pretty mediocre, but like a lot of people…the little things can feel like the weight of the world as they pile up. That is just how it is.
With that said, I was going to try and write some deep and symbolic post. One that just makes people say, “wow.” But the truth is, that just seems pointless. I speak what is on my mind and people will take away what it is that they need to take away. Trying to dictate my words in such a way that it is thought provoking…well, it is usually detrimental to the point on hand. It usually takes away and makes my head hurt. The best method, which should go without saying, is to just type what comes and let it flow as is. Once upon a time, I was a pretty intelligent person whom could write like no one’s business. I would like to think that somewhere in there…..that girl still exist.
I’ve said time and time again how I am always trying to conform to what people think and what they want. I do it in order to find a way to connect to people, because that is something that I have been horrible at. Something that I grow even worse at as time passes by. I suppose this is what happens when you become a wallflower because you have allowed people’s words to get to you. We have all been there at some point in time, so we all know what I’m talking about.
Daily I look for ways to change my situation. Change the way that people view me, but all that I keep coming back to is that I have to be true to myself. This, again, should go without saying. We have to be who we are in order to feel complete and content. When we try to change who we are, it can often be debilitating; especially, if what we are trying to change…is not something that truly needs to be changed. My thing…honesty. Most people do not like complete honesty…at all. They say that they do, but no one really wants to hear it. Me….I may not want to hear it, but I will take it and I definitely do nothing but speak it. Unless of course you are some guy with gold teeth, dreads, and a Bob Marley t-shirt hitting on me in the movie theater parking lot. Then it is possible, that I may tell a little lie like that I’m married and waiting on my husband. True story…but in my defense, he wouldn’t leave me alone. The point is, I am nothing if I cannot do what is right for me and who I am. This is true for all of us…and we all know this.
I think that this is why I am fascinated with these pictures of Sassles….because that is exactly what cats do. They not let humans dictate to them how to behave. They are strong and fierce. They are independent and they choose whether they want to be lovable or if they want someone to get bent. Sassles is no different. She often meows like she wants attention, but she will either walk away or she will let you get a few strokes in and then she’s done. I also think these pictures look amazing. She looks amazing.
And as always, I got distracted and lost my train of thought. Go figure. As for the pictures, they speak for themselves. I hope that you like them.
Have a beautiful day and tomorrow.
Montana Rose Photography