Blogging is definitely my nemesis. I have so many pictures and so many stories, but there are so many amazing blogs out there. It gets discouraging at times. Trying to compete.
Don’t get me wrong, I’ve obtained a nice following, which is amazing. (Thank you to all of you. You rock). Still, my last few post…well, anyway. It is not my intent to whine.
Anyway, how does this lead to clear mind? I think about the thoughts I have when I anxiously check my blog to catch up on my favorites as well as to see how many people may have liked mine. The negativity and discouragement that runs through my mind. Oh my. Is it the content? Is it the picture? Are they too wordy? It’s like a twister of dismay trampling on every insecurity I have. Sometimes it all just makes me want to disappear. That is when I thought about sitting on the beach.
When I’m away on my trips, my mind is so clear. It is so easy not to think when there is nothing to think about. It is funny, I think that the beach has that effect on me. I’ve never been much a beach girl, or at least so I thought. I had never had the desire to go walk on the beach. Now, I’m slightly addicted.
I’m not addicted because of the sun, ocean, or what have you. It is also definitely not the sand. I’ve been putting off cleaning out my car for two weeks, because I don’t have enough quarters to conquer that sand dune. No, I’m addicted, because everything that weighs me down always just disappears. Melted away by the sun and swept away by the ocean. I do better at those moments. The confidence rises and I can take on anything.
Now, it is just a matter of applying that serenity and that ability to “free my mind” to my everyday. Maybe then I can do what I set out to do. Be confident enough in my photography to not be so discouraged when it gets lost amongst the field.
If I can do that, maybe I can take on the world. Or at least a piece of it. Thank you for stop by and I apologize for the content….I just needed to clear my mind a bit.
Montana Rose Photography